It seems as if my every attempt to try and heal my countless emotional wounds is futile. The Judeo-Christian God, and all of His followers want me to be unhappy. I just want to be who I am without discrimination and hatred. How can something so harmful be considered right? I can only wish for humankind to evolve past religion, because frankly it's doing more harm than good. So many atrocities have been committed in the name of God. And even the so-called "humanitarian" missions to third-world countries bear the ulterior motive of indoctrination and intimidation. Every time I encounter any piece of evidence of Christianity's stain on humankind, I grow disgusted. Jesus wouldn't have wanted it. Or you know what? Maybe he would have.
If you want war, if you think I pose a threat to your precious little cult just by being who I am, just know that I, unlike you, have no narcissistic ulterior motive. I just want to be left to do what I do in peace. I don't want to change who I am. I don't even want acceptance in the eyes of the Lord. I want to heal. And you aren't letting me do that.
What do I mean by "healing"? All that is considered "sinful". Listening to aggressive, blasphemous music like Gorgoroth and Deicide. Choosing not to accept Jesus Christ as my lord and savior, but still admitting that He was real and actually wasn't all that bad of a guy. Masturbating to members of my own gender. (For the record, I am a bisexual. Hate me.) There is no such thing as sin in my eyes. I believe that I am not harming anyone by doing what I love to do, unlike you. You try to justify your actions and claim that you're superior to me somehow. But in a way, it's the other way around. I try to be nice to everyone and respect people's opinions. And you know what? It's been hard, at times. I get angry. I screw things up and be the exact narrow-minded person I fear. However, at least I know when I am and try to correct myself so that I may do better in the future. You, on the other hand, are absolute. You do not change. There's no use changing you. But, there's no escaping you. Your stain of mind is omnipresent.
Now playing: "Sorg" by Gorgoroth (Antichrist, 1996)
If you want war, if you think I pose a threat to your precious little cult just by being who I am, just know that I, unlike you, have no narcissistic ulterior motive. I just want to be left to do what I do in peace. I don't want to change who I am. I don't even want acceptance in the eyes of the Lord. I want to heal. And you aren't letting me do that.
What do I mean by "healing"? All that is considered "sinful". Listening to aggressive, blasphemous music like Gorgoroth and Deicide. Choosing not to accept Jesus Christ as my lord and savior, but still admitting that He was real and actually wasn't all that bad of a guy. Masturbating to members of my own gender. (For the record, I am a bisexual. Hate me.) There is no such thing as sin in my eyes. I believe that I am not harming anyone by doing what I love to do, unlike you. You try to justify your actions and claim that you're superior to me somehow. But in a way, it's the other way around. I try to be nice to everyone and respect people's opinions. And you know what? It's been hard, at times. I get angry. I screw things up and be the exact narrow-minded person I fear. However, at least I know when I am and try to correct myself so that I may do better in the future. You, on the other hand, are absolute. You do not change. There's no use changing you. But, there's no escaping you. Your stain of mind is omnipresent.
Now playing: "Sorg" by Gorgoroth (Antichrist, 1996)
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